Humpday was no joke today!!!

I had a very, very long day at work. I took an extra day off work so today was my first day of work this week. I don't know what's going on in this city or this town but it is not blessed as far as I can see from where I sit, the reason I make this statement is because someone wrote an editorial in the paper last month that suggested the city of Asheboro was blessed this opinion was form because Asheboro is a dry city. A strange point point of view but everyone is entitled to his or her own opinion. I think if this city was so blessed I would not have so many cases in my caseload. I did a little crochet last night one row on the Beth's Little Star Afghan. Plan to add at least one row tonight. I wonder what people would think of my daydreams?, no I will not share them they are deep and very personal just wondering what people would think if I really went deep with my thoughts and daydream, they are not all about crochet. Let's say I have a lot better life than the one I am struggling through. What purpose am I serving what have I accomplished in my 42 years? None I fear! I feel that I no longer exist.

The Pretender

I have decided that I am going to become a pretender. I shall keep all my thoughts and opinions about myself to myself I am going to try my very best to never ever again let anyone know what my true feels are regarding anything in my life, I have found even with your family its best to stick to the basics and not go to far beyond talking about the weather. I guess I will start a journal I think I have a program on Microsoft that allows you to start a journal so that's is the place I will place my true feeling . Well today was not a bad day I did not work, yesterday was not half bad either I did not work the office was closed for Labor day, it rained and we had a family cookout. It has been almost a week and no crochet I cant seems to work myself up to crochet and I really love to crochet and find it relaxing but for some reason I have been to down to get up the energy for crochet. So I have spent some time looking a all my crochet magazines and books even though I know I can go to the Internet a find free patterns I love to buy the books and magazines. It is really enjoyable to look through the books and magazines and plan fantasy projects. Maybe tonight I will sit down and crochet.